wading

Noting the resolution of the prince, the gods suddenly cast a spell on the young women, leaving them in distorted postures and shocking poses. One lay leaning against the side of a window, her slender body bent like a bow, her beautiful necklace dangling. Another, with loose and disorderly hair, lay like the figure of a woman trampled by an elephant. Her ornaments and garments having slipped from her back, her necklace scattered. And another, of great natural beauty and poise, was shamelessly exposed in an immodest position, snoring out loud, with her limbs tossed about. Another, with her ornaments and garlands falling off and garments unfastened, lay unconscious like a corpse, with her eyes fixed and their whites showing. Another with well-developed legs lay as if sprawling in intoxication, exposing what should have been hidden, her mouth gaping wide and slobbering, her gracefulness gone and her body contorted. Seeing this, the prince was disgusted.

dear diary,

******

you are so much smarter than me

you have read so many books

I go to college for Feelings

I am at college

majoring in feelings

quicksand 

the hourglass and 

combos

How to Cash In

and Cop Out

love always,

**

Sisters at Heart

mystery the way of life

like walking down the street and being a girl

there is nothing to say about it

I can’t tell him about it

There is this other world

where I can go

I walk into it like an acorn shell

in this other world

I drive my car on the beach

it's Alameda beach 

my favorite beach 

and it's ok to park there

I have the means and sureness

to get myself to where I want to be

and we always have the time

to do the things we love

you are the only person I could talk to

and write about what we talked about

then know that you’re reading it

literally the only

סבתא

my savta, their ema 

sweet betty

his mama

so sad and true

"it is what it is

what are you gonna do"

sweet israel 

dates and honey

my blood as thick 

and consistent 

as their meals

that's his mama though

that's why I'm here and

now shes being suctioned

somewhere

my little family is dying

and I'm right here

home on my back

honey in my blood

I love my parents because they are both beautiful people and let me do whatever I want

wind chime

thinking sex in shapes

curved like the mirror behind us

the headboard

I have seen this before

but not with the waves

*

no one feels it getting cold

we just like to talk about it

what's it like to be winter in dreamland?

to have weird weather in dreamland

its like waking up happy to awake

with your windows still shut

only opened in a dream

so its hot

no distance from the sun

I am psychic about when I get shocked

like the water fountain above the carpet

with the vacuum cleaning blocking 

my drinking position

shocking

about the weird weather

the second floor is a heavy difference

in temperature

like going room to room

heavy differences

in temperature

maybe I am wise

but chest pains why

wine lips, maybe

*

thinking of sex like shapes

my barefeet on some

cool, damp earth

I fantasize of grounding mysef

in the pale light

losing it all in the hills

with wind like skin

it breaks my heart to throw away a seashell

am i gliding?

a softness in going home

going room

to room

is not so

my shin hurts 

when i think about it "cracking"

i hear the whimpering of the dog 

with the jingling of the keys

"give me a jingle"

it's beginning to feel a lot like california

or like christmas

in mexico

every christmas 

even BC*

i knew you would smell like sunshine

lavender soy scent

mrs. its a clean day

from nj to the pj

mr. i can work out with my eyes closed,

and i want to cover

the sunny side of life

but it breaks my heart to throw away a seashell

"his manners were so exquisite 

that they were like a definition of civilization"

pill hill

I finally saw Jamie in a dream

 He was standing in front of his

dad’s house, poised to leave,

 leaning against a long shiny

black Cadillac

 The house was like a black

and white wedding cake,

 double-decker, balcony

trimmed with lace and white

 lilies, and those strands of

imitation pearls that can be big

 and tiny. His dad was

Bella Lugosi wedding Dracula

 awkwardly seeing him off in a tux

with tails, everything shining

 joke black and white, against joke

green grass and blue sky

 The whole scene

was a wedding funeral, Jamie

 was waiting for his wife

to come downstairs and

 get in the car

I know you’ve been

 a few places

I know

 you’ve been back

from them

 Those places look

joke black in my mind

 They must feel joke black

sometimes. Like an inky

 cartoon spider web

The most perfect and

 frightening. The dark appeal

of a quill, with the sharp

 point

Getting older is just when

 things start getting realer and

closer to home

And one day

 you never come

back

but sissy bliss

 there are all kinds

We liked to chew aspirin

 because of the taste

I’m on the airplane again

 chewing aspirin

United Airlines would

 like to congratulate two

of our passengers

 Mr. and Mrs. Brookes

are celebrating their

50^th wedding anniversary!