Friday, February 23, 2024

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time is the solvent in which 
truth is extracted

the mountains are blue today
last night I wanted to climb out of me

I took an extra pill and listened to 
a bird documentary from under the covers

images from mountain tops
over the city of Los Angeles

to invoke radio broadcasting
it's not fair to me, that open window

feeling I desire so desperately
when I hear a harp or a chime

hot with a breeze
just the wind and I

stone me with precious stones
sometimes I want that too

what made you glitter?
nothing, there's nothing to be taken from me

Monday, February 19, 2024

Darkest purple leaves on the jasmine vine
Stomach on the fritz because wine last night
I kept thinking on the table
that she was communicating with my body in a language I don't know
that she could translate between us, my body and myself
and I felt different characters pass through me who I was too
I felt that them wanting to be someone else 
and I that I could help them 
White flower that doesn’t smell like it looks in my pocket
Wind in my hair in the parking lot
Laying down on the cement
Laying down in the wellness room 
She said she doesn't feel like we always connect
did a gesture to mean just scratching my surface
I can't help the buffers I create 
She can't either and knows it
I can walk back to my desk
with my eyes entirely closed
I've got a feeling
and it's walking
warping*


Thursday, February 15, 2024

Feb 14

it rained all night 
now there is so much 
real or mechanical bird song
spiral in my arms 
if we could just be here
my wires pulsing 
real or mechanical birdsong 
I’m older but younger now
I wish that for everyone
I shower in the morning and use both 
the dove and the rose spray
and the musk 
both real and unreal scented 
bionic eye disks to see the mountains 
seeing the mountains keeps me sane
just coffee and silver cigarettes before noon
just 15 minutes of sunshine
but the fields billow and the real
or mechanical birds sing
the mosquito hawks propagate
rising up from the grass at me in pairs
floating through the chain link

Monday, February 12, 2024

a.t.p.2

I don't fit at my desk
struggling with where my hands go
each task I take on
is slicing up the time
trying to fit into an outline 
just in front and to the right of me
they said there was no future
but after all we're in it 
in it together
after all I know now
I was bitten by angels
when I feel limited
I think of the point you make
of gathering sunlight
of keeping the windows wide 
of batting cages and
upside-down cake
to be in your car
really feeling the road 
sunlight overarching
two spot rainbows
on either side of the sky
I'm happy thinking about 
us each looping the new song
remotely, respectively
life is
it's never what you think it's for
and I can't seem to say it all
and I have to write or 
I'll never know
I'll never know 
but I have to write
dream with frosted orange 
glass zippo shaped like one half
of a butterfly wing
then my alarm
goes off and simultaneously
a map of all my 
relationships spreads out 
in my mind

Tuesday, February 6, 2024

Miracle of the Rose

they say you have to burn to shine
there's one of every type of cloud in the sky
the truth is like a stray angel
he thought it was a bird tattooed on his chest
but it was a woman's face with hair spread out like wings

this allegedly dead world sleeps unrestingly
do I prefer akathisia
or sleep paralysis
every day just sort of cracks
all these songs without words
walk to 218 Younglove for lower blood pressure 

excavating the past in my phone photos
love made and unmade
the feeling of motion in my limbs 
it will make me overshoot my efforts 
I’ve dropped the cake before I pick it up
the gravity and grace of it all