knots in my stomach
for not knowing how to feel
something is awry but what?
how many more times
can I lose my innocence?
bramble around my heart
so catholic, dramatic
but its a real feeling
like pierced by thorns, deflated
defeated and accepting
there is no better or worser
Jamie's birthday again
what does it mean this time?
our Peter Pan friend
that pervasive kindness
with no effort or motive
that isn't even a kindness
it is a curiosity
just natural
all I know is I'm going away
and I'll try to make
everyone proud