last night, and other nights (notes on suicide)

wishing to be saved

I ask the cat,     will 

 

you?

when all escapes exempt

from linear time and            

each route

deflates   pre   conceive . . ..

the third party     I gag       

on talk    it loosens me 

badly

how night moves in lasso 

,catch 

how Nothing mocks 

my casts 

when heat syncs

this glitch   

                   in business

of wanting, I'm bobbing 

on moonlit surface  > 

the bedroom light  over 

cooks 

amnesia 

punish me

completely 

save me/same   

coin stuff .. . .

Defeat's severe, 

macro   daddy hold 

on (see/how) night moves

      here goes:

      one shape 

      of resist-

      ance to 

    night 

an empty (moonlit) diamond 

here goes

my small defeat 

bogged by sport and 

bench warm

sort of sleeping in shoes    to be contd. 

last day in ny

so bad how 

you called to say goodbye when 

I was     at the busy intersection 

how you're sorry for the mess 

also

clouds are lucky fish 

and the sun does shine

mid august 102

i respond already

thinking 

of your pleasure

in the moment before total night

i make up

the bakery line of the sky

we try it on like a ring

oh

how your handy   makes me 

blue

when i double text   you

come

hotline's edge

moods surface w walls

and cloud like ofc 

but which one

@death seconds

[themes] don't add up

to make me anything 

like sole it's slice like

your stress

while mine

is loving

the rhythm 

on hold

sleep ceaselessly

w the sun 

going

[dream] up 

missing rungs

(wooden)

rocking horse

pinging you

where

clouds 

are painted

and smoke 

circling

that love

again!

so bully

angel180

so wish