we worried about it a little bit,, but that's all

I'd love to fall harder than for a friend

and for it to be allowed

it's been a very long time

I told lori-may about my acupuncture appointment

and the butterflies in my stomach about seeing him after

she noted the image of those butterflies being pinned

the plan of the house, the body in bed

the car that got stuck, it’s the mud, it’s the mud

a stick a stone, it’s the end of the road

it’s the rest of the stump, it’s a little alone 

it’s a sliver of glass, it is life, it’s the sun

it is night, it is death, it’s a trap, it’s a gun

fire for a while

 

flowers etched on mirrors in the back of your mind

why a daydream 

of the cool dark isles of a pet store? 

scent of cedar, alfalfa, millet

white mice and inscrutable fish

watching them quietly do not disturb

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a sunset with the prettiest eyes

you're so see thru

I think we are equal parts 

heart and mind

and what we do

and how others reflect us

and how we reflect others

..99~*drifted

desk

to lately be sharing 

    my bed with just 

sand 

    it's fine 

have you ever seen

a drawing made in  

gunpowder? 

              how when 

lit from one end the 

fire races    along it 

like a snake 

            all the way 

    to the other? 

distortion high on 

the fretboard sings

to me like that; 

hot,         sparkling 

songs make me cry

daily but      I can't 

tell sometimes  the

tears feel A.I.? like

  tears very witness

or replicant     as in 

moved by not   my 

own heart        but? 

because    I want it         

like because    they 

are       silk chiffon

the curtains I made

hover like     

                     a dog

(*fog) like 

once when I was 16 

I left class  because 

I was stuck  

in third person      I

walked as far as 

I         couldn't stop 

crying so hard that 

my nose bled thick 

dots onto the steps    

where I was hiding

dad and us     on the 

fog beach with the 

dog     a treat in his 

hand wind whipping 

a strand of hair into

my mouth red jacket

lined w/ fleece b&w 

striped shirt

I was this I was that

I was    any     thing

I can't really    look

at those photos  not 

now, here  knowing

what           happens