what i want to say
i want to just
present my heart
a record that is personal
and in the present tense
a where have i been
a what have i been thinking
for the past 5 years
it may all be enough
or more than i've thought it was
i always want to hear the most personal
not as in a trauma mapping
but as in the hyper specific
impressions and delusions
we all have
i want to say that my reality is office mundane
and the flipcoin to a genocide
that i want to be stronger than all of it
but i am tightroping
the idea that some are
bitten by angels
and others are kissed
by death
and we want to fight
for each other
but the divide is on purpose
the distance just by chance
i want to be
an enemy of the smooth
the everyone a pop star
lying by omission
for the sake of the package
claiming style
with no margin of error
omitting marginalia
omitting uncertainty
claiming a selfhood
unique, solid
as brandishable as a weapon
brandishing brand
so tired of looking at that
