JK

baby blue

gotta go to the met

I am not afriad to be an essayist

or to live in upstate new york

the tiny turkey portion on a plate

the big man carving turkey in the club

you may have loved his luminous paper chef hat

it was dramatically 2D

simply bright paper

the orange tree tops

were whipped with cream fog

heavy and low above the golf

giant zen gardens with holes

how do I see the dirt

and then the screen?

literally how

1623

Is it even real that America happened like this

Are we living in a real place

liquefied with the heat can you see how its darker

Molasses legs are back

air like water

good thing the train smells like

fresh laundry and feels like ice

sweating

dream where no one he introduces me to 

remembers my name and he is defensive for me 
ending in two snakes coiling around each other

wanting to buy myself some practical new identity-wear

tasty fruit game on the iPad to my right

is drunk what it feels to be old?

the child of parents

a figment

cerebral cutie

morphy edges freak

i will always be a gangsta

i will never be a ho

my hands are dir T

dark dark juice

this is no novelty to me

that is no novelty to you

dark dark juice

my hands are dirt T

the difference in waiting to be tapped on the head in dark dark juice and being the juice

think about the sun and

love of life

husband and wife

Califonia feels 
the wide and lifted

birds in a certain way 

plus wooden table coffee beans

and cement space for trash cans

being pulled to the curb

around the side of the house

width of windows and mild people

wearing colors like

2010 my twin my twin

reading tween

poolside birds and brown skin

12 again drive me around

quiet and brown

3 through 17 again i used to heard

so many birds want you so bad

Why did I cry?

I'm a clown in here
Compulsively hitting up the dollar rack

Listening to the neighbors talk about how a lady tried to kill her boyfriend with antifreeze in his coffee telling him it was Splenda

Not so fresh fruits and veggies
It's ok if you don't want to come see
me.
I'm getting lazy in the work place

Rich people are income generators they make money make money
What's the most righteous thing to consider the situation

What's the most righteous to say that this situation

We are all victims and beneficiaries of our own magical thoughts. We are self-fulfilled prophecies.

Niagara is a sad town
The falls pull you towards them
So many empty storefronts
tourist failings
No spa
Shivering next to the pool
While you smoke
I want to be made of mist
If I can't be made of gold
   with you

Saying yes when you want to say no
Yes!

But I miss my baby
It is cloud 9
When you touch my face

I think we both have strong magical thoughts

Blue pie
Blue morning glories
Blue sweater
Blue church

Did my hair stop growing when we met

Words are easy
Feeling satisfied by the ocean
for what it is for what it is
is hard

You're always at war with yourself
Internal battle

Friends who were sad and with lots of drugs
versus my true blue you

real and me and me and real and 
real and you and you and me

the big picture and the little picture

rubber dick insulin needle piece of 
glass cd-rom in the square back yard 
square like being on the set of a movie 
i’ve been watching my whole life

Girl in heels and awkward purse 

~feeling~

I wouldn’t notice that your feet were red if mine weren’t too

summer in the city everyone yells and has a gun

doN't give a Fuck da ffucK

I should’ve washed the dirt outline of my back yard sandals off

clear dolphin lungs hot and breeze

ash fleck and dirt

cat shit heat

overgrown and corrugatesteel

bug’s world up close

Dial soap smells like my aunt Moniqiuia’s house

hot slippy pink tiles

Clean towels in the cool closet

smells and heat used to be vacation

now they're my life &they confuse me

cable and unripe nectarine

with sugar and cream

that was my thing

granulated sugar cream and cable

till my head was pounding

i don’t come from heat cold

or thunder or snow i come from

tepid tepid that’s why

    it’s all a dream to me

The Spirituality of Women

cherries in the Penske
leather seat vegetable legs

rotting in the sun

cute and biblical lambs
in fields of bride bushes
with their sheer veils

a penny in Santa Monica
from when my dad was ten
brilliant through some sand

blown out on the sidewalk
outside the box
with inside eyes

Wow Mom
history is his story
Mom Wow

"with modern day technology there is no reason for anyone to be bald 

or have a wrankle

I am not a caveman"

Middle school like fantasy jealousy
Like
Who care who care
Real and me
Self satisfy sinking
Like
 I like pretty things
too much
copy me Disney Princey
Like
the apartment where I made contact
with the world of the living
-so timidly-
sunflower in the window
Fuck
what is this feeling
Creeping on me

gate is good

rolling rolling rolling
letting it blend

bleed
and bend



y'all doing something together that she can't remember



something inside two paper cups, 
wrapped up



chewing this gum 
while drinking that coffee
it's just like,
chocolate 
she's like

still minds a wrap

cups blowing
keeps bleeding


(still rolling)






shhhhhhhhhhh blowing
on a
bright bulb
to cool it
fun
she's
thinking
seriously
those dim ideas

are cool

seriously
rolling it away
that heat





rolling away and
going again

locking it up 
and sleeping again
@cool down
y'all cool and down

ALL DAY ELECTRIC

one day i’ll be old and 

i’ve always known that

I’m going to be someone 

who gets to be very old

dark dark juice of the now

my only GUTS on the beach

pain and children around

dark brown and red sunset

the sky is so low gold

she is bleeding so flat to the ground

telling me she’s ok

dark dark juice

on the verge of a wave

i want to ride a wave or maybe

just feel that crest forever

why mock

not why ,, why not

ALL DAY ELECTRIC

U.S.A.

like a real

a new job as the girl who brings water to eveyone’s tables and pours herself onto the table
it's a 24-hour restaurant in the bedroom

The New York City Department of Health and

Mental Hygiene has the jurisdiction to regulate

all matters affecting health in the city and to

perform all those functions and operations that

relate to the health of the people of the city.

the girl who brings water to eveyone’s tables and pours herself onto the table